I just felt like updating my Xanga, so I thought I would.  The thinking led to the doing.  Now the doing is nothing but elaborating on the doing of the updating.  Yeah. ANYWAYS….


 


I got a new job.  Sweet.  Taco Hell.  $5.75 an hour, 42 hr work weeks.  Making that money to bring home the bacon or simply put, making money to spend on Jesi


 


Love you babe.

Wow, I’m a real douche bag.  An asshole as well.  I’ve been
avoiding Jesi, like an asshole.  I wish she could kick me in the
ribs and cave in one of my lungs.  I deserve it.  I don’t see
how I did it.  To just cut off someone I feel so deeply for. 
I was just pissed an moody and a douche bag.  Sometimes I wanna
shoot myself.  To bad it’d be a bloody mess. 

I did something new yesterday.  It was quite fun.  I finally
got a serial modem so now I can have internet in cabot on my linux
boxen.  Yay.
 
I also got a router this weekend.  Man, this weekend was just a get goodies weekend.  * thinks of Jesi *

* sighs *

Its great to have someone you love stuck in your head.

I love you Jesi!  * blows kisses *

Well, I lost my Engineering Design contest yesterday.  I’m
sad.  I have failed the S.Q.U.A.D.  I don’t know why I’m so
moody lately.  Mood swings have been haunting me all week. 
This is sucking so much ass.  I haven’t talked to Jesi all week
either.  It really sucks.  I miss her.  =(  /me
wishes he could hold her.  And all of the fucking hypocritical
people who go to her church.  Spreading lies to her parents in a
very un-Christian like manner.  Thats why I don’t go to
church.  All of the hypocrites.  I don’t know.  I just,
gah.  It really sucks having a long distance relationship. 
You can’t do all of the stuff that is associated with dating other than
talking.  I can’t hang out with Jesi.  I can’t go to the
movies with Jesi.  I can’t cuddle with Jesi.  Yeah, it
sucks.  Too bad she’s stuck with me for the rest of her life
though!  😀  * le sigh *  I love Jesi so much! 
Yay, now I’m kinda happy.

grr, I’m kinda depresdd.  It sucks. my spelling sucks b/c I’m typing ofscreen.  Oh well, who cares.  Man, My parents fight, my sister is stupid, my dad’s an asshole.  It’s all going down.  Man.  =((. 


wish ou were here.  I loave you Jesi.

As I sit here in my fav. class.  I have nothing to do but prepare
for… *~* THE ULTIMATE TEST *~*  When I go to SkillsUSA this
summer to compete in Technical Computer Applications, I should be
ready.  If I am, and if I win first place, I will go to Japan for
internationals.  That would be so sweet.  And as me being a
computer freak, I should be able to win this.  I should be. 
/me crosses fingers.  If I win, I dunno what’s going to
happen.  OMG, it would be so great.  Really, really great.

I love you Jesi!